Biological Clocks and Tokophobia ๐Ÿ•“

The pregnant female is probably the most undecorated hero that society has. Every woman that has ever been pregnant and given birth , be it viaย the traditional route or through surgical means, deserves numerous medals of honour and bravery. There are a myriad of complications that can occur during pregnancy , labour itself can present with its own set of difficulties andย the period after delivery is just as dangerous.

I was born under an apple tree (yes, really) and I’ve never truly appreciatedย ย my mom as much as I do now !ย She is at perfectย liberty to use the ย “Who carried you for nine months and gave birth to you under an apple tree” lineย as much as she pleases from now on!

Of one thing I am absolutely sure thoughย , thatย the chances of me becoming an Obstetrician and Gynaecologist are close to nil. I have been alternating between three states of being for the past three weeks ; traumatised , flabbergasted and shocked to the very depths of my soul.

vaginal delivery shock

Theย Obstetriciansย ,ย the lecturers during this block ;the Reproductive System , have a fondness for shocking us with incrediblyย graphic videos of complicated deliveries like emergency caesareans , breech deliveries and shoulder dystocias.

Theย caesarean section video was the most traumatic yet, the baby’s head was too large for the mom’s pelvis so they had to cut through five layers of her abdomen to retrieve him๐Ÿ˜ญ I nearly fainted , the operative word being nearly.

We have to observe at least three normal vaginal deliveries before third year . I’m going to go with myย friend/ย clinical partner who’ll be there to catch me should I have another “episode”ย . ย Next year we’ll be expected to deliver a baby during our Obstetrics rotation , which meansย I willย have toย overcome my tokophobia before then.

Shoulder dystocia
This is what my “Episode” whilst watching the caesarean section might have looked like๐Ÿ˜…

We also have to know how to perform a Caesarean section before we graduate because in ourย intern years we’ll be expected toย at least ten !

I’m not exactly tokophobic ;I don’t fear pregnancy itself .Whatย I doย fear is the labour process of which I am equal parts fascinated and horrified by .

The idea of having to be present with all my pain receptors fully functional is whatย scares me the most. My threshold for pain is not impressive. If there was a delivery methodย that induced an out of body experience without the use of surgical tools or anaesthesiaย , where I could wake up with a bouncing baby in my arms afterwards , I would take it ! A passive foetal diffusion is what I have in mind.

Through all this , I keep having to remind myself that I’m only 19 and this is in the far futureย (particular emphasis onย far). My biological clock hasย plentyย of time running. I’m not even in any form of aย commitment that wouldย induce thoughts of bringing another human into this world๐Ÿ˜„ Until then I will remain blissfully pain free ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ‘Œ

Lots of Lily Love โคย  โค (LOLL)


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