Chaos and Calamity

“Life is at its best when everything has fallen out of place, and you decide that you’re going to fight to get them right, not when everything is going your way and everyone is praising you.”
― Thisuri Wanniarachchi

I am here to accept the award for “Most Neglectful Blog Owner in 2017 &  Part of 2018” .

It’s a title that I have shamefully earned. After promising to post during my holiday and then proceeding to not post during the holiday , I truly deserve that dishonor. Blogging only a handful of times in 2017 is not my proudest moment. And this being my first blogging effort in 2018 is entirely deplorable.

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Honestly, life did not unfold effortlessly for a while. I hit a gargantuan speed bump (metaphorical) during my holiday.

My will to blog , let alone do anything, was obliterated during that time. I had been disappointed and hurt by someone close to me and getting over that initial shock was hard.  I spent some time feeling very sad and angry , and rightly so after all that I had endured.

Part of me was reluctant to feel sad because it felt as though I was back-tracking on my mental health. After some time , in acquiescence, I opted to put an ending to my stoic tendencies and acknowledge what I was feeling at that time. It was the healthiest thing I could have done for my mental health.  That was my turning point after that heart-wounding.

I managed to overcome that funk and enjoyed the rest of my holiday. I spent time with my friends and family. It was beautiful and peaceful. I was at peace with my self and felt perfectly content. Suffice to say , blogging was really the last thing on my mind ;). I spent my days eating good food , reading good books and indulging in the company of my family. And swimming daily 🙂

Reflection time ! 

2017 was a year of mixed emotions . I had dizzying and ludicrous highs and really low, below the ground , lows.  I learnt a lot during 2017. Discarded some naivety for some life experience.  I matured significantly and I hope to utilize this personal growth to go onto better things .

2018 thus far . . . 

Then the academic year began. . . It was a mad rush and in a very short space of time , I was incredibly busy. 200w_d (2)

2018 had me feeling a little bit lost at first.  I felt as though I was a first year who was trying to find her feet again.

I have been inundated. Mostly with school related work but also very personal matters.I have done the needful and set all my ambitious goals and I have been quietly and slowly working on them. #self care

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I am not going to make any blogging promises, because I clearly can’t keep them , but I still view this blog as a happy and calming space and I will utilize it as often as I can throughout this year.

I’m in a much better mental space at the moment and even though I’m bull-dozing my way through assignments and currently on rotation , I feel healthier and I am much happier ! 😀 :

Thank you for reading my rambling thoughts and following my blog 🙂

Lots Of Lily Love ❤ ❤ ❤

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